I can't afford therapy.

Thank-you for reaching out to betterhelp for assistance. I look forward to assisting you. It sounds like you would like to talk with someone but say you can't afford therapy. You say you thought therapy was free. In some places it might be. What state due you live in and what kind of insurance to you have?  You further state that you talk to yourself and that you don't really have anyone to talk to and that your husband doesn't really understand you and your up and down moods.  It sounds like you have tried journaling and you don't really feel like that helps. I would suggest you reach out to betterhelp staff and ask them how they might assist you with affording therapy. I don't have anything to do with how much therapy costs on betterhelp. I am a counselor.  It sounds like you would really like to talk with someone and it might really help you. Sometimes betterhelp might have some specials or maybe a free week. I don't know what they have but you could ask them and see. This would help you more than one question. It sounds like you are having some problems with your mood and maybe some depression. Do you get depressed and how depressed do you get?  I would suggest you look and see in your area if they have any mental health clinics also and see if they can help you with counseling. I would suggest some cognitive behavioral therapy for you and the ABC method or skill. This therapy challenges and disputes your thoughts and beliefs to get a better outcome for you. In your case in would be to have less depression and less mood swings. A= the activating event, B= your thoughts and beliefs, C= the outcome or consequence. The key is to challenge and dispute the B to get an outcome that will be good for you. Try this and also talk to betterhelp via email and see if they have any specials. I have enjoyed assisting you and wish you the very best. I look forward to hearing from you.